I miss you, Houda. I miss you infinitely…

I miss your soul, your body, your mind. I miss the warmth of your smile, the shininess of your teeth, the spark of your skin. I miss our love, and everything in it. I miss our dances, our walks, our runs. I miss our hugs, and the softness of your hands when they touch my neck. I miss our kisses, and the sound they make. I miss your little tongue, and the sensation of touching it… I miss our conversations… the words we say. I miss the compassion, and getting lost in the depth of your eyes. I miss your tenderness, your laughter… your smile… I miss your poses, your hands, your feet, your hair…

And I miss you. I miss you next to me. I miss us together. I miss the feeling of being invincible with you. I miss the feeling of having a shot at forever…

And the truth is… that I can’t accept in my mind any of these feelings either. Because I don’t want to miss you. I want to have all those things. For the rest of my life with you.

And I can’t stop dreaming and thinking about it and you, Houda…

…

I hope you are doing okay.

I miss you, Houda, I miss you infinitely…

And I love you, more.